Dear Jianamobile2000,
We've been dating for a entire year. wow. Dats cwazy. I love you.
Out of respect and solidarity to your minimalism journey, I opted for a digital card to express my gratitude and love you for you. Also, I can type wayy faster than I can write so you're going to get a WHOLE lot more of my authentic-live-streamed-real thoughts. 90 wpm of thoughts in fact. I'm going to write this in one stream of conciousness instead of thinking too much about it. I had to mention that, you know, so if you ever read this agian you won't be like, "wow, this stinky ugly mf is stupid as fu*k he can barely write a love letter, ew". or something.
Where do I begin......... Well, I guess I should begin at the beginning, of course. HAH!
I remember being so nervous and excited when you texted me asking if I wanted to get a drink at Tunnel Top bar. I called Kat, and I sent her screenshots of you hinge profile and she confirmed you were a baddie and roasted me for saying something awkward to you. Before we met for a drink, I looked up Tunnel Top bar on yelp and saw the craziest photo of a machine gun behind the bar, and I remember thinking damn, she must be super alt or something, which I thought was hot, but I was also nervous cause I was like whaat is she pranking me? Am I going to die? Here, one sec, I've got to find this picture. I'll add it below.
When I finally got to the bar, I had to give myself a mental pep-talk to calm down the nerves. You were (are) gorgeous and seemed like the polar opposite vibe of the machine gun bar photo. Green shirt, brown boots, glasses, pre-school teacher, very bubbly personality -- a complete 180 from what I had envisioned in the best way. As we got to talking, I was nervous, and I started working up a sweat. I could feel it running down my back so first I had to roll up my sleeves, and then I could feel it on my face, and I was thinking fuck, why am I sweating right now, she's going to think I'm nasty. Anyway, it worked out fine, just another day of back sweat. no. big. deal.
After hearing more about who you were and your life and your love for teaching, I had a crush. And then I walked out of the bar while you were in the bathroom and you thought I'd left. After we parted ways the anxiety set in and I was super super bummed that I had messed up our date. But, on the bus home you texted me some Laufey song which was a huge relief because I was pretty confident that you were going to ghost me. I listened to that song, and thought, damn, she's cool and I like her. I opened up my notes app and wrote down everything I could remember about you.
I think it's kinda funny that so far this letter has just been giving you a play-by-play analysis of our first date as if you weren't there. I'm pretty sure you remember it too, but I guess its good to tell you my perspective of it. Maybe you forgot, idk. ;)
:) :-)Why I love you:
★ I love it when we're going to bed and you try to wiggle onto my side of the bed despite me telling you multiple times that I need space so I don't overheat.
★ I love it when you get excited about a subject and talk really loud in public.
★ I love it when we otter.
★ I love it when we read together and you lay your head on my chest.
★ Your smell. I love that. Specifically, when you wash your hair.
★ I love your style, and how you are bold and happy and feel comfortable in your skin.
★ I love how easy talking to people comes to you. You're really good at talking to anyone, and that's awesome. I envy that.
★ I love how confident you are (kinda same as the two above but still, it's true, I love that about you).
★ I love how goofy you are.
★ I love that you're smart and not pretentious
★ I love ******** and ***** and when you ************ and ** and ***** and * and ************* and ******* and you c** we f*** and I c**.
★ I love your obsession with trinkets and stuffed animals and all the things you like that I don't understand because I think you're one of the most caring and thoughtful people I've ever met, and that's really, really amazing.
★ I love how you help me out when I'm stressed. You really make my life so much better.
★ I love how we've gotten comfortable with each other and I can tell you anything.
★ I love how much you like to cuddle.
★ I love we almost always go to bed with any issue resolved and we can work through most everything.
★ I love how cute you are.
★ I love so, so many things about you but I want to move onto the next section so I'm done with this list.
★ I love Jiana Bibbee.
:)
next section:
Here are some of my favorite photos of you/us:
ok wow, that took so long to get those stars to look like that. and my comptuer is about to die, so i lied, ill have to pick this up later. We went to Beit Rima yesterday and im already craving it again. I got to go fix my bike, I'm at cafe de olla rn. i need to remember to get you flowers too.
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Picking this back up
Today is Friday, January 17th. I just had Ritual coffee with you very briefly before you rushed to the 43 for work.
I love holding you. This morning was so cozy. I cannot wait for you to see the surprise gift I got you. Maybe I should tell you about it in this letter but IDK if im going to give it to you first or if I'm going to have you read this. OK, fine, ill just tell you. I got you a cake from this really cool baker that reminds me of yungkombucha . She works at a coffee shop in the Richmond and Xan told me about her. She makes really crazy-lookin custom cakes, so hopefully you like it. Personally, I'm very excited to try it. I feel like my brain hasn't warmed up yet this morning and this message is kinda just like monkey-brain disfunctional.
Anyway, this morning, when I was looking at your face in bed the light was blanketing you and you looked angelic and I had a moment of awe. I feel so incredibly lucky that you love me. You've made my life 1000x better since I've met you. I seriously don't know what'd I'd do without you, you keep me sane and are such an amazing person.
well........
I ought to end this letter. We've had an incredible year, and I can't wait for the next.
I love you 22,
With all my heart ❤️,
Cheers to one year,
Can't wait for Japan,
Xoxoxox,
Hey,
Not sure if i mentioned that I love you,
I'm really lucky you're in my life,
excited for our summer together, too,
LAterrrrrr,